Cody Michael

Our heartbreak is still so fresh, so hard to believe it will get better. Our anger still with us but has lessened knowing your new life is Peaceful and pain free. We want you to know you are our Little Miracle Boy who will live in our hearts FOREVER!!!

We MISS and LOVE you so much honey. We know you are our angel and watching over us. Know how we know?? We just found out we have been blessed again, Cody we are going to have another baby. Please know our love and know that you will never be replaced, you will always be Our Little Miracle Boy!!

Cody we got some upsetting news today. We aren't going to have a baby after all. We are sad but will keep our chins up. Do you hear mommy talk to you each night? I have your angel bear with me every night, I hold it as I would have you. Please ask the Lord to wrap his angels around us and help us keep moving on.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!!!!! You will Always be our SPECIAL VALENTINE!!!! We miss you more and more every day!! Helen has joined you now. Greet her with open arms. She is a real special lady, let her love and cuddle you as much as she wants. You have lots of our loved ones with you now, a big loving family for you up there. Hope you are giving your grandma lots of mookies!!! She loves mookies from her babies!! Has she sang her special songs to you?? I bet you are loving her hugs and kisses. You loved for mommy and daddy to kiss your cheek,you moved closer for more.

We cant believe its been almost a year since we had and then lost you. We can remember every minute of those times as if it was yesterday. Our hearts still aching and our minds still asking why. You were our dream come true and now we wish we could wake up with you beside us and losing you was just a dream.

Life seems SOOOO unfair to us but we need to keep our chins up. In Jan. when we thought I was pregnant, I was, the Dr.says I lost the baby. WOW that blew us away!! We are hoping and trying again,we want SOOOO bad to bring a baby home with us!! Do you hear us talking to you?? Do you hear our prayers to the Lord to take care of you?? Mommy still sleeps with your green angel bear, I give him lots of kisses and hugs meant for you, do you feel them baby?? Tell grandma and Helen we think of them all the time and miss them so very much!! Hope you and Jacob are being good little angels and remember how much your mommy and daddy miss you both!!!!

Its time to say so long for now and tell you how much we love and miss you buddy.You will live in our hearts forever Cody!!!!!!!!

This month is so very hard!! Your first B-day is coming and we cant celebrate with you.

Cody your mommy and daddy love and miss you so much, our hearts will never completely heal, this is where we hold the memories so dear. Your little fingers grasping ours, you turning your cheek for another kiss. When you heard your daddy's voice you got so excited, your heart rate went up and you kicked and squirmed. Sometimes daddy had to be quiet so you would calm down. The nurses sure loved you and got a kick out of your responses to your daddy. I know you loved me too but you bonded with daddy, he was with you as soon as you were born and mommy couldn't be. We are both so proud of your effort to stay with us but feel a little guilty because you fought and suffered to stay with us.

April 22, 1999

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE!!!!!!!!
Cody we wish you were here to celebrate your birthday!!
This day is so hard,we cant help but relive every minute of it.Our Little Miracle Boy was born today,the little angel we waited so long for.
Remember baby you will live in our hearts FOREVER!!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CODY MICHAEL!!!!!
WE LOVE and MISS YOU SOOOOOOOO VERY MUCH!!!!!
Mommy and Daddy: April 29, 1999


Hi Sweetie,
OOOOhhhh Cody one year ago today we lost you.The
time I am sitting here writing to you is the same time one
year ago today I was holding you for the last time. Cuddling
you and telling you how very much Mommy and Daddy loved you.
My tears falling on your cheeks, my lips kissing your nose.
Humming lullabyes to you, knowing it will be for the last time.
Holding you soooo tight to my chest,my heart hurting so bad.
Daddy held you and cried so hard,his pride and joy
isn't going to go fishing with him. His favorite Buddy is
leaving him. Knowing we will meet again was no help to us
at the time. It was so hard for Mommy and Daddy to leave you
at the hospital. Coming home to your room with no Cody was
sooo hard. We still haven't gotten stuff taken care of in your room. Its gonna be a while before we can do that.
We came to the cemetery today and released balloons
to the heavens above for you. Did you see them floating
along with our hearts to you in heaven??
Cody remember YOU LIVE IN OUR HEARTS FOREVER!!!!
Mommy and Daddy

Hi Angel,
Just wanted you to know how very much we love and miss you Cody.You were our life and we find it so hard to go on without you. Mommy still sleeps with your green angel bear and talks to him every night hoping you are hearing and feeling my love!!!!!
Daddy goes fishing alot and wishes every time he goes that you,his fishing buddy could be with him. This was just a short note to let you know Mommy and Daddy love and miss you sooooo much, as well as all your
grandmas and grandpas, aunts and uncles and cousins too.
WE LOVE AND MISS YOU DEEPLY SUNSHINE!!!!!!: June, 22, 1999


To My Sunshine,
Just needed to write to you to feel close to you.
Even after all this time I have such a hard time believing
it happened. I look at other Mommys and wonder do they really know how privileged they are to have a living child to hug and kiss? Do they know to cherish each and every moment or do they take all for granted? How lucky and blessed they are to feel and hear their child's love !!!! My
heart breaks and aches for you in my arms when I see Mommys
and their children love and enjoy each other as I so dreamed would be the same for you and I. I try not to be selfish in my thoughts and truly hope and pray these Mommys know how special and blessed they are to be able to hold their children and convey their love thru actions and words.
I look so forward to the time I will be able to hold and love my baby again, until then Love, remember your Mommy LOVES
and MISSES you SOOOOOOO very much!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU BABY !!!!!!!!
Your Mommy

July 30, 1999

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