John Edward Sator son of Kenneth L. Sator March 4, 1982 - September 6, 1998
My Dearest Son,
How difficult life is without you. Life is difficult sometimes. I wish with all my heart you could have talked to me, just picked up the phone and talked. I had always told you that I would always be here for you, I wish you would have remembered me. The first Thanksgiving without talking to you was a difficult one. You were remembered in our prayers. On that day we were all thankful for the time that God had allowed us to spend together. Your laugh, that wonderful laugh, that is what I remember most. Every night I pray that you are sitting in God's lap and that you are laughing. I also pray that God lets you play with Bud and Jezzie. I remember how much you loved Bud. This is so hard.
I wanted to let you know that I built you something, a keepsake box. It is made of oak, and sits on my dresser. I have not been able to muster the courage to put your photos, obituary, and funeral items in it yet. Maybe tommorrow. I am sure you know, but just in case; the Saint Christophers medal was from me, it was the one that I wore when I flew helicopters, it kept me safe too. The other medal was from your Uncle Steve, it kept him safe while he flew also. The drvers license was from Grandpa, he figured you would need it.
The outpouring of love that your friends and teachers showed in your honour was truly remarkable. You were very special and loved by all that knew you. I am not looking forward to Christmas this year. I wish you could be with us. Everyone has a moment in time when they wish they could do or say something differently. Admittedly, most choose to change a decision that would enhance there own life. Since your death, my outlook on life has dramatically changed. I think for the better. What a sad statement that sometimes it takes such a tragic event to change people for the better.
For the rest of my life I will love you with all of my heart, hold you in my dreams and laugh with you to the depth of my soul. I want you to keep yourself and Bud safe and wait for me. I know the moment in time that I would change. I love you so much,let my love keep you warm.
To my son John, In Heaven. Forever and ever, till infinity plus a day.
Your Dad
Email John's Dad: ksator@panam.edu