You left too soon, and yes there is a hole in my heart where you will always be. The date is approaching which marks the anniversary of your death. Why, after 6 years, do I still ache inside? Why do I still cry? I miss what you could have been. How different our family would be if you weren't gone, but we're here to share in the joys and laughter of your two younger siblings. I'm sure you are watching them -- and you must be watching out for them! But no matter how much I love Jeffrey and Jessica, they will never replace the love that was only for you. You were my first and will always be my first. I had never, ever loved someone like I loved you. I will never love again as completely as I did when I first held you in my arms. You were such a sweet natured baby! You were so happy! No matter how ill you got, or how much they hurt you in the hospital, you would crow with laughter, and wrap your arms around my neck.

I miss you. I will always miss you.

Love, Mama.